I wish I could

I wish I could draw or paint, so that I could express my feelings. Not to show the world, but just so I could get them out of my head. Since I was a little girl, it's always been my dream to be able to draw, but I guess I just don't have it in me. I've been doing sports probably since I could walk, but I've never been really good at it, I've been average and that's it. Even if I always wanted to be one of the best I just wasn't - maybe it's because I don't let things come naturally but all I'm focus on is trying to be the best and not the way of getting there. Sometimes I just wish I had a talent, something I was good at - something that made me feel great and a feeling like this is me, this is what I can do.